changin' times

i dont know if its the weather lately and the time change, but i am starting to feel the winter blue's. i hate it. i hate winter. i hate cold. i hate that its dark at 5 o'clock. i'm ready for a change. i am trying to convince Josh we need to go here, or even here. but i think we will hold off on going on one of these.

also, i found out in August i am going to graduate school. seriously? crap, now i have to grow up, and get a real job, like a career. i'm sort of freaking about that.

we got another dog a few weeks ago. oh man, this little guy is fiesty. he will be josh's hunting dog so he will be outside, but for now he is in the house. sam fights fight all the time with him. max is still really jealous and wont play with him for too long. its a good thing he's cute or one day he might mysteriously "run away".

another thing, today in my ethics class, we were discussing our chapter about Caring. the class went into a heated discussion about marriages and men and women's relationships. one of the crazy authors {Helen Andelin, we were discussing her writing Fascinating Womanhood} we read about in this chapter was saying its a women's job to make a man feel manly by just doing everything for him. i completly disagree. men and women should have equal parts in a marriage. after class i was talking with my good friend, who is a boy that i have been friends with since before high school. he asked if me and Josh's marriage was like that crazy lady said it should be. I answered with a "HELL NO!" and then said, "one time i refused to do Josh's laundry until he started putting his dirty clothes in the dirty clothes hamper. and guess what happened, he started putting his clothes CLOSER to the dirty clothes hamper." i am like the best wife.

one more thing, have you heard this little girl sing? she is amazing!!

Sept. 22, 2007

these past few months have been so CrAzY! josh and i are so busy. josh wouldn't have it any other way. he loves his job, and he loves being busy. i love that he loves his job, and i love the fact that he is providing for me, but it comes at a cost. i hardly ever see him. we try to go to lunch together as much as we can so we can spend some time together during the day. i am staying busy as well with school, and work. this semester i am taking a physics class, and it is so freaking hard. its going to be a miracle if i pass this class.

our 3 year anniversary was this past September. I cannot believe we have been married for three whole years! time just flew by! we have grown so much as a couple. we know each other so well. josh is my best friend. i love him so much! i am so blessed to have him in my life!
on our anniversary, we went to lunch together. josh left work early (i got the day off! yay!) and we ate dinner at Pizza Factory in Orem. we love that place. our waitress was totally awesome, and she even gave us FREE dessert! we were going to go see a movie, but we decided to just go back to our house and rent The Killers. which i might add, was totally dumb and predictable. we didnt like it.

josh i love you so much! these past three years have been so fun! i cant wait for eternity!

Fall

I am so blessed to live in the prettiest place in the world.

Josh is currently out of town, and I am trying to keep myself busy.

Today after class, I went home, picked up the dogs, and went on a hike.

It was absolutly gorgeous!

The dogs had so much fun roaming the mountain side.

I was in awe at how gorgeous my own "backyard" is.

24th B-Day!

This handsome fella turned 24 years old Sept. 9th.

On his actual birthday we didn't do much to celebrate.

Josh and I worked til pretty late in the evening.

We ordered take-out, and spent the night together.

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The weekend before his birthday (Labor Day weekend),

we took a 4-Day long trip

to the Sand Dunes. We have made this trip to the Dunes

annually for the past three years!

We had a blast while we were there.

Even though, anything that could go wrong on the trip, did!

On our way there a tire blew on the trailer. Scary!

When we got there the batteries weren't working on the trailer.

When we fired up the generator, it was sputtering.

Josh was racing up the face of Sand Mountain, he was in 5th gear, and his shifter broke.

He couldn't shift up or down. Totally scary!

All that happened before Sunday!

All in all it was a great trip!

We were surrounded by wonderful family and awesome friends!

Happy Birthday Josh! I love you so much!

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Live this year up, cause next year you will be a quarter of a century old! :)

fun size

whoever came up the the "fun sized" candy bars should go to jail for false advertisment.

in my world, "fun sized" would be like a 5 foot long candy bar,

that weighed 5 lbs. and took me an entire day to eat.

in this world, "fun size" means a tiny candy bar that i can eat in maybe two bites.

seriously...

now, this is "FUN SIZED"

{plus, look how happy that little child's squishy little face is.}

that candy bar is as big as she is!

its my party...

... and i'll cry if i want too...

yesterday was my 22nd birthday. its weird that i am in my early-twenties. josh and i have celebrated 5 years of birthdays together. crazy!

my 17th birthday: josh called me, and i didnt have his phone number in my cell phone. it was awkward and random... and my "boyfriend" at the time who was also named josh didnt appreciate it.

my 18th birthday: josh and i just started dating. we went to dinner with my family, and then we went with my sisters to see Fast & Furious: Tokyo Drift. we still talk about that night. it was fun!

my 19th birthday: i dont remember much about this birthday. josh and i were engaged, and our wedding was in a month. times were crazy! this is probably why i dont remember this birthday. :)

my 2oth birthday: my first birthday with josh and i being married. we went to dinner with my family, plus Monica (my cousin) at Sizzler. this is also the same year my mom crashed on the 4-wheeler and broke her foot. Josh got me a pink iPod nano for this birthday.

my 21st birthday: i had a rockin' 21st birthday party with a 90's theme. it was a blast! so many friends and family members came to it. we had an awesome BBQ, cool jams, and yummy cake! you can reminisce about it here. josh got me a pink Sony camera.

my 22nd birthday: josh and i worked for the majority of the day. we got off work fairly early, and went to dinner with my family and my nana at Olive Garden in Provo. as usual we were way too loud than necessary, and had a great time! we went and did a little shopping after dinner, and went back to our house for cake and ice cream. for this birthday josh got me a lap-top. my own personal lap-top. loooove it! it came with a pink case.

are you catching a trend here? i think i LOVE technology and PINK!!

josh knows me too well! :)

{this adorable child isnt me, but this is what i look like blowing out my candles. i am that cool.}

i have had many memorable birthdays, including this years! thanks so much to everyone who text me, called me, and left me facebook messages and wished me a happy birthday!!

definitions

in·ap·pro·pri·ate  [in-uh-proh-pree-it] : not appropriate; not proper or suitable.

i dont think i have used this word more than when i started nannying. some examples of everyday uses of this word are:

please dont sing this song, the words are inappropriate.
please dont watch that youtube video, its inappropriate.
whoa, turn that T.V. show off, its inappropriate.
umm... that music video is defiantly something you shouldnt watch, its inappropriate.
do not throw your stuff at me, thats inappropriate behavior.

if everything is already inappropriate nowadays, what am i going to do when Josh and i finally have kids in 10 years?!

funniest thing EVER!

if you havent seen this... watch it, NOW! maybe even watch it a couple times. it is hilarious!

july

this blog has been neglected lately. its not due to lack of things to blog about, but lack of time to sit and actually do it. life has been a blur since the end of may, and i dont think i'll be able to catch my breath til school starts in the Park City School District in mid-August. who knows, maybe by then i'll be in a mental hospital!
Josh is work, work, working... like usual. anyone who knows Josh; knows he will work til he cant keep his eyes open, and he'll saw his fingers off.
me on the other hand, well i have been working more hours than Josh. yes, i said it... i have worked more hours than Josh. i wake up before he does, i leave to go to work before he does, and get home at night after he does. (now do you understand why life is a blur?)
things are going well at the Goode household. there will hopefully be lots of good posts in the next few weeks - who am i kidding, the next few months! :)
my little sissy got married the second weekend in June. it was a beautiful wedding. she, of course, looked absolutely gorgeous! their sealing in the Salt Lake Temple was wonderful! it was so amazing to be in the sealing room, with my parents, josh, and my sis and new brother in law. of course there were other people there too. i hope pictures of their wedding will be here soon, so everyone who blog stalks me can see how gorgeous the wedding was.
this weekend, josh and i along with my family, (minus the newlyweds) are heading down south to enjoy some time with extended family at a cabin. i am so excited to go! not only to sleep in, but to spend time with my neglected hubby!

HAPPY JULY 4th EVERYONE!

i think Lee Greenwood said it right, in his song "Proud to be an American" (just a few excerpts from the song that i really like.) (Random tangent for anyone who is still reading, i dont remember what grade i was in back in the day at Dixie Downs Elementary School, but we sang this song to some Japanese people from our sister school in Japan. I still remember like it was yesterday)

I’d thank my lucky stars,
to be livin here today.
‘Cause the flag still stands for freedom,
and they can’t take that away.

And I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
' Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

Well there's pride in every American heart,
and its time we stand and say.

i am proud to be an American. i am so blessed to live in a Country were can i have freedom of speech, were i can wear the clothing i want, listen to the music i want, read what i want. i am blessed to have a grandfather who loved his country enough to serve it so loyally. at his funeral when they did the 21 gun salute i couldnt have been more proud in my life!

thanks to all the veterans, and the soldiers who are fighting for me, and my future children.

In Loving Memory...

First off, thanks so much to all my wonderful friends and family who left comments on my last post. I appreciate everything that was said. Thanks for being there for me!

It has been almost a month since my grandpa has passed away. I am still having a really hard time with it. I don't know how to get my feelings out, until it just builds up, and all I do is cry. I still have been extremely sad lately. I think Josh and I need to go to the temple. No more excuses.
I have been working on this post for the past 2 weeks. I am not sure how to put into words my feelings. I have been reading other family members blogs that have been tributing my grandpa, and I cant think of anything more to say about him. I am truly blessed with such an amazing family. Since going to the hospital and saying our good-bye's to our wonderful Grandfather, and being there for each other as a shoulder to cry on and give support to during the funeral we have all grown so close to each other.
I love that we were all able to sit around his house, with our Nana and mom's and reminisce about all the memories we had with Grandpa. We looked at pictures, made jokes, and celebrated his life! That would have been how Grandpa wanted it to be. Lots of love and smiles around his home.
I think the most memorable, yet hardest part of Grandpa's funeral was when all the grand kids got up and shared a memory of Grandpa, and what we would miss the most about him. We all loved him so much. He will be missed so much!
Josh was saying a few nights ago as we were talking about Grandpa, that the night we left the hospital, the same night as he passed, Josh went and talked to Grandpa and Grandpa took his hand and with all his strength gave Josh the best hand shake he could. I remember Grandpa trying so hard to express to all of his grand kids how much he loved each and every one of us, but because he was so weak he had a hard time speaking. Even though he was too weak to say it, he showed it in many other ways.
I love you so much Grandpa. I know that you will be missed here on Earth, but we will see you again. Maybe not as soon as we all would like, but we will. Teach me and Josh's children everything you know... Your strong testimony of the gospel, going to church, and paying tithing; how to love unconditionally; that family is everything in the end its all you've got; your famous whistle; your adventurous spirit... and so much more! I think you can leave the stubbornness up in Heaven with you though! :) Between me and Josh, I think we have got it covered! I'll make sure I tell any future great-grand daughters, " To keep their legs closed!" See you soon, Gramps! Love you so so so much!

lately...

i hate the feeling of not being accepted because i dont have a baby, or i'm not pregnant.

lately life has caught up to me, and i have been feeling a little sad. josh tries to understand, but sometimes i just cant explain it. i hate crying. i am not a crier by nature. and lately i have cried over too many stupid things. but at the same time, i have cried over a major thing that is happening in my life.

i feel like i am loosing all my friends one by one. but i am lucky enough to have married my BEST FRIEND. i am lucky enough to have him by my side all the time. he is so great to me. i love him so much! he is my rock.

i am not writing this post to get sympathy from people. i just need to get my feelings out, and i figured this is the best way to do so. sometimes i am at a loss of words, and things to say to people. i hope i havent offended anyone in anyway shape or form. i apoologize if i have.

yesterday morning, i got news that my grandpa, who was diagnosed with lung cancer back in Oct., was admitted to the hospital. he is weak. i think the end is coming. quicker than we all thought. i am sad to know that none of mine and josh's children will know him. he is a great man! he is so strong! my hero. i love him so much!

when josh and i got married towards the end of our reception my grandpa wanted to dance with me. luckily our videographers where there and were able to capture this moment. i am going to charish that video, and the few pictures from that forever!

oh panda... you know me so well

Birthday Bash!

On Saturday, it was my sister Aryn's 17th birthday. We celebrated it without her. :) She decided to ditch her own party and hang out with friends. (I think I have done that a few times growing up! It happens to the best of us.) We went to Olive Garden with Nana and Grandpa, Bekah, mom and dad, and obviously me and Josh. Courtney and her beau, Jake, met us there. It was a yummy dinner, even though one of the waiters would give me a plate, and 5 seconds later he took it away (Maybe he was trying to tell me the unlimited salad and bread sticks actually does have a limit!). We had a wonderful time chatting about "The Jersey Shore", Nana finally retiring, and wonderful memories we share. It is always a good time when we go out... Sometimes we get a little loud, but its always a good time!

After we had dinner, we went and watched "Tooth Fairy" (You know, the kid movie with THE ROCK). It was my second time seeing it. It is so good! I love it. Its so funny! (In a 5 year old immature way) The funniest part of the whole night though, and you can ask Josh-he was crying cause he was laughing so hard-was when my mom knocked over the $6 bucket of popcorn, and my sister Bekah tried to grab it mid-air to save it! Even funnier though, before the movie even started, Courtney knocked over her and Jake's $6 bucket of popcorn. There was popcorn flying the whole movie from G section at the movies. Again, such a good time and we even got a little loud! (No surprise!)

SUPER BOWL SUNDAY, was my mom's birthday. Everyone piled over to our house. I told my mom Josh and I would make dinner for the family, so she could have a day were she did nothing! We had chicken parmesan, spaghetti, bread, and some yummy salad. After dinner we busted out Madagascar Karts on the xbox, watched about 20 minutes of the game, and decided to watch "UP".

What a fun filled birthday weekend!

I love you mom so much and am so thankful to have been raised by such a great lady! You are truly amazing!

I love you too Aryn, you are such a good sister! :) Thanks for always being willing to do anything!Mom, Bekah, and Dad. At my 21st Birthday party. No, they dont always wear sweet side ponies, and overalls! :)

L to R: Aryn, Me, Courtney, and Bekah. In Chicago 2008 at the Planetariam.

lucky in love.

I have found someone who does whatever it takes to make me smile. :)

Someone who challenges me daily to be happier than I was the day before.

Someone who knows me inside and out.

Someone who smiles while I laugh hysterically at my own jokes.

Someone who lets me do whatever I want, no matter how off-the-wall it may be.

Someone who knows that as soon as I have a little 'tude, can find me food faster than he can spot the tool section at Home Depot.

Someone who cleans out the fridge, cause the smell makes me sick.

Someone who is just as silly as I am.

Someone who loves the same cheesy TV shows as I do.

Someone who says "I Love You" every time he gets off the phone with me, even when I make him so frustrated.

Someone who in my darkest hours he is still here to hold my hand and walk through it with me.

I am so lucky to have found someone who loves me for me, and not for what he wants me to be.