wordle.net

seriously, go check this website out. its so cool! at the top of the website there is a tab that says "create" click on that and type away. that's how i made this. so fun, and so ncute!

a year later

i love this song! it makes me tear up every time i hear it. the words express what i can't.
Justin Moore, If Heaven Wasn't so Far Away:
"... And what I wouldn't give
To ride around in that old truck with him
If heaven wasn't so far away
I'd pack up the kids and go for the day
Introduce them to their grandpa
Watch 'em laugh at the way he talks
Then tell him we'd be back in a couple of days
In the rear view mirror we'd all watch 'em wave
Yeah, and losing them wouldn't be so hard to take
If heaven wasn't so far away..."


Today marks the one year anniversary of grandpa passing.
What a year it has been!! We have grown so much as a family!

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i miss grandpa everyday. i think i just expected grieving to be easier. its not. i am lucky enough to have married a wonderful man, who understands me in every way. as the year has gone by, i find myself noticing older men who remind me of my grandpa; whether they look like him, talk like him, smell like him, cough like him...
i don't think it will be any easier to go to my nana's house and not seeing grandpa sitting in his chair. i don't think it will be any easier to go to dinner at Sizzler and grandpa not joining, i don't think it will be any easier to go four wheeling and grandpa not coming.
i do know that when josh and i have our own children they will have known grandpa personally and he would have taught them everything they needed to know before they came to earth. i do know that grandpa is watching over josh when he is jumping his four wheeler so he doesn't get hurt. i do know that i will one day be able to see my grandpa again!

four years ago today, April 13, 2007, josh asked me to marry him.

the best decision i have ever made!

i am such a lucky girl to get a man like josh! he makes me happy like no one else can!

when i am with him, i feel like myself.

and that is why i married my best friend!

finals are coming up... yet the only thing i can think of is this...

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love you gramps. miss you all the time! teach my future children lots and lots! can't wait to see what special spirits you helped picked out!

adorable.

spring is slowly approaching Utah. it keeps teasing us with gorgeous sunny days, then 5 days of snow. i am keeping myself busy with school, work, and a little field-work in my career path. here are some of my favorite things for this spring and summer, and a few things i have found that are just plain adorable.

enjoy!

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i have received many emails from piperlime.com about wedge shoes. they are making a come back! it gives height, and is still comfy to the feet. here's a whole list of super cute wedges for summer.

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i am loving lace in fashion as of late. i love this shirt from downeast. its so feminine. you can dress it up with a skirt, or play it down with a pair of skinny jeans.

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what says Easter better than a fabulous Easter hat to go along with your fabulous Easter dress??

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i would love for these to be in my classroom. i could have tons of fun with these; let alone a whole classroom of 4 year olds!
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i have an obsession with bowls -- especially pottery bowls. i am in love with this cantaloupe bowl. perfect for summer.
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i want to get one of these. maybe now UVU will let Max come to school with me.

under pressure

i feel like i need to get this off my chest, it has been eating at me for a while now.

a lot of people have been asking josh and i about when we will have children.

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i feel this is a VERY personal question. having children is something that should be between josh and myself and Heavenly Father. not between someone i just met, or someone who has known me a few years, or someone who just feels they should ask. it makes me feel so uncomfortable when people ask me questions about when we'll have children or about the birth control we are using. why is it anyone else's business?

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our first year into marriage people began asking us when we wanted to start a family, and we have been under pressure ever since. josh and i have set goals that we want to accomplish before we have children.

i love my husband more than anything. i want to spend as much time as i can with him; just the two of us. i think people forget how young josh and i are. i was 19 and he was 21 when we got married. we want to enjoy time getting to know each other and creating memories.

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when josh and i decide to have children it will be our choice! not a choice that is made because everyone around us is having children and its the popular thing to do.

definitions: part 2

sim·pli·fy [sim-pluh-fahy] : to make less complex or complicated; make plainer or easier: to simplify a problem.

one of my friends said her favorite word is "simple". it got me thinking, what can i do to simplify my life?

any suggestions are appreciated.